[ there is something reassuring about knowing the odds. there is something considerably less reassuring about knowing that the odds had been in his favour many a time while he'd been with hydra and he hadn't made use of that. sam tells him that's not his fault, that they messed with his mind to a degree that made it impossible for him to realise how much stronger he was, that he might have had the upper hand in a fight.
he's no longer their weapon, right? so if they come now he doesn't need to go with them. he's with steve now-
and suddenly it's imperative that he stay with steve, because he's with steve and together they can take hydra and if he keeps steve in his sights then the programming won't take over.
he's on his feet in one quick motion, standing behind steve, a little too close for comfort perhaps, jaw clenched. ]
[At this point, there's no such thing as too close for comfort. Had there ever been? Ever since they've known each other, Steve and Bucky haven't shied away from physical closeness. An arm slung low around his shoulders, a hug here or there, huddling up on couch cushions to stay warm and comfortable on cold nights...
Compared to all that, they barely touch these days. Steve's been hacking away at the wall between them bit by bit, but he doesn't want to overwhelm Bucky. It doesn't usually go beyond brushing back his hair or setting a hand on his thigh.
If Bucky wants to join him right now, then all the better. Steve takes the lead, like he always does. These days he knows it's because Bucky doesn't want someone at his back as it makes him nervous, but there's still something familiar in it. Steve always goes first, with Bucky just a few steps behind him, and maybe there's some kind of muscle memory in that too.
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he's no longer their weapon, right? so if they come now he doesn't need to go with them. he's with steve now-
and suddenly it's imperative that he stay with steve, because he's with steve and together they can take hydra and if he keeps steve in his sights then the programming won't take over.
he's on his feet in one quick motion, standing behind steve, a little too close for comfort perhaps, jaw clenched. ]
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Compared to all that, they barely touch these days. Steve's been hacking away at the wall between them bit by bit, but he doesn't want to overwhelm Bucky. It doesn't usually go beyond brushing back his hair or setting a hand on his thigh.
If Bucky wants to join him right now, then all the better. Steve takes the lead, like he always does. These days he knows it's because Bucky doesn't want someone at his back as it makes him nervous, but there's still something familiar in it. Steve always goes first, with Bucky just a few steps behind him, and maybe there's some kind of muscle memory in that too.
Steve takes comfort in it, at least.]